Time to dump my 80th birthday candles

Miriam, Age 81

Nine months after my 80th birthday, my “8” and “0” candles still sat on my bookcase. I couldn’t decide if I want to be reminded of this frightening milestone or if I should forget it and continue to see myself as young enough for new adventures. I knew my grey hair, weakening legs, wrinkled loose skin and tiring at 9pm required limits I had to accept.

Finally, before my 81st birthday, I stored the candles out of sight. Sure, reminders of my age are everywhere. They intrude when looking in the mirror, while walking up or down hills and in countless other ways. Aging sometimes becomes a positive, too. I appreciated when a college student offered to help lift my suitcase off the airport baggage claim carousel. I love when my granddaughter jiggles the skin on my hand and says with a smile, “I love touching your soft skin.” But I’m glad I stored the candles where they can’t remind me of my age.

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Broken bones – 76

Noel, Age 76

I’m a mental health counselor and I still ride my horse and feel 56 even though my physical self has a lot of metal in it. I’ve been through two bouts of breast cancer, all early thank God and several fractures. Recently, I tripped over a rug that I had rolled up in my living room and landed on the floor, I hyper-flexed( kind of like a whiplash) thought nothing of it got a x-ray at a chiropractor and all was well. I went to see my primary several weeks later and she suggested an MRI. Turned out I have a type two dens fracture at the base 3mm that is stable and non-displaced. It’s been 12 weeks now with a soft cervical brace and no healing. At 76 bones take longer to heal, and this particular bone doesn’t have a lot of blood supply, although my doctor thinks I’ll heal. He has prescribed a bone stimulator growth machine which I use every morning for half an hour. I’ve read journal articles on this type of fracture and the surgery required. I am concerned about the rest of my life whether it be 5, 10 years or two! Any one out there have experience with a type 2 dens fracture? I love to hear some good experiences:)

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Forever homes

Sherrill Pool Elizondo, Age 74

My husband and I moved to our vacation home 8 months ago after being in our home in Cypress, Texas for 42 years. Difficult physically, mentally, and emotionally! Possibly it would have been easier at a younger stage of life but we loved where we lived and my husband was still working. One son convinced us that we didn’t really need two homes anymore (OR a two story house) and needed to get rid of many of our belongings we accumulated in a 52 year marriage! We had a vacation home built on the Texas coast in 2014. For 7 years we would stay there between 4 days and 2-4 weeks. Often I’d come alone or with a cousin before husband’s retirement. Keeping up two homes is a daunting task. I kept in mind something a dear friend told me: “For much is given, much is required.” Our vacation home (now permanent residence) is in a small town where I vacationed for years with family growing up and where my husband and I would visit my parents in their 2nd home when our sons were young. They learned to fish here and we had many happy memories of time spent in this small coastal community. Where we moved was not completely a strange or new place but still I find myself trying to feel at home. I think I’ll always carry my old home in my heart. I googled something about not feeling at home after a move and found much written on the subject. Feelings I’ve been experiencing are not uncommon. On Psychology Today an article went into depth about feelings involved with a move and ways to get beyond sad or negative emotions. Moving does NOT always make you happier and the author used a phrase that gives a sense of the general meaning of the feelings and what needs to happen: “place attachment.”

I’ve only lived in a few places in my lifetime. My parents’ 2 homes, dorm in college, a small apartment when I married, our first starter home, and the home of special memories. We chose our lot in 1980 and our home was the first one on the street. Two sons were very young when we moved in and a third son was born while we lived there. There were no grocery stores, banks, nail salons, Starbucks, restaurants, or a jazzercise center nearby. There was little traffic and I could cross a main street without looking. Mainly deer roamed the area! My sons rode their bikes long distances in this forested area which I learned after they were much older…where was this stay at home Mom!? They remind me there was NOTHING there, no traffic, and one freeway hadn’t even been built! Now, restaurants, banks, grocery stores etc. are all in walking distance of our old home. More people have relocated there since the Pandemic and, of course, traffic has increased.

All of our sons moved back into our home between college years, jobs, and marriage. Our home was a refuge. When two sons and their families moved back to the area at different times from San Francisco and Seattle, they lived with us for several months before finding their own homes. When a hurricane caused flooding of one son’s home, we welcomed them to our home while their entire house was renovated. Growing up, all of their friends were welcome to our home and to this day my husband and I count them as our other sons. Memories of birthday parties, a family reunion, Christmas with family, good neighbors and more will always stay with me. Like a turtle, I carry that home with me!

In reading a recent post about decluttering on 70 Candles, I was reminded I had put off writing about our move…too difficult to put into words. It’s been a while since I have gone to the video of when our beautiful home was staged. I am making progress. When you don’t move for many years, you put off decluttering. I found it challenging and emotional. Just going through framed photographs and placing pictures in an archival box was bittersweet. Much of what we got rid of was overdue. My mother’s China that would eventually go to a grand daughter is now in containers for her when she is older. One grandson got some appliances etc. as he was starting college. Old books went to family or donated. Most furniture was given to family or donated to charity. The maid got some cleaning supplies…as I had all that in my vacation home. Clothes, shoes, purses, some pictures on the walls, old record albums and more…donated! I had a fully furnished home here with a beautiful old dining table…thankfully one son took the other beautiful dining table. One son took my husband’s desk. Only a few furniture items and lamps came with us. The rocking chair I rocked 3 sons in came as well! My husband has ONE box to go through and needs to decide on some of his old work suits and shirts. I still go through clothes and will give some items to one daughter in law or donate. Downsizing is tough! We no longer have my husband’s study, a fourth bedroom, formal living areas, or closet space we once had, but I don’t miss stairs or Houston traffic. There’s a couple of items I still can’t locate like a tape measure and a group of pictures that I used to carry in my wallet. I gave up on obsessing about where they could be!

I’m grateful for the help we received from family during the move. With a bad back, those who helped with packing and moving and helped put items away and got the family photos on the wall… the move would have been even more difficult without their help! I stay in contact with old friends and neighbors but I do miss them and hope they come for a visit. As far as working my way into the community at this stage of life…that’s another matter. I don’t want to pressure myself about volunteer work, as I volunteered for MANY years in my younger years. I miss my shopping conveniences and routines but trying to adjust. I’ve joined an exercise group but they are mainly seniors and I DO miss younger Jazzercise friends. For now, (I deserve this) I’ll take pride in what I do accomplish in attempts of getting my writing published and enjoy reading, as I am an avid reader. Along with some walks on the beach road, I’ll try to keep in mind that life is good! I sent an email to family and friends several months ago and said in the final paragraph some thoughts I would like to share:
Our home sold in 2 days! We even got more than asking price. On our final moving day I walked through all of the rooms upstairs and downstairs and looked out all of the windows…Had my cry and said my good bye. I read that a home one has lived in for a long time is just the vessel of memories…so true. We had many happy times with a large and growing family through the years. Today our youngest grandchild is 5 and started kindergarten. Our oldest grandchild started his first day of college. “Nana” and “Pops” have begun a new chapter of our life here in our home by Aransas Bay.

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Spring into action – decluttering

Karen, Age 62

Today is April 1st and I’m starting the journey of decluttering in a unique way that I learned from our family friend, Grace. You start with one item on day one, two items on day two, etc. By the end of the month you are throwing or giving away 30 – 31 items. The items can be as simple as a paperclip, or even a letter no longer needed. But the daily cumulation provides momentum throughout the month. She did this practice for several months a couple years ago and she said it was not only cathartic, but has kept her in a frame of mind to be ever vigilant about ‘things’.

I’m eager to get started and counting on the momentum to keep me going. I’ve pared down over the last two years as a result of two moves. However, I feel it’s time to dig a bit deeper and look past the obvious. I need to get to those boxes of music that I haven’t touched, the books that aren’t read anymore and could be shared, the outdated or never used trinkets, jewelry, scarves, clothes, even shoes that I know I have not worn in two years and might never wear again now that I’m retired. What about the canned goods I know I’ll never open, the duplicate or expired spices? And, do I really need my daughters’ worn out baby blanket? It’s time to lighten my load – sentimentally and physically. April seems like the best time to begin.

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Leaving an end-of-life letter

Jane, Almost 74

I thought I would leave this end-of-life letter behind for my daughters-in-law when I die. My experience with them has been difficult, I have not been able to communicate with them effectively, and I find that writing helps me to cope with such challenges. I wonder what you think about my doing this. (I thought I might also leave a letter behind for my sons, if I become so inspired to write it.)

Dear Sue and Rachel,

Well, I am finally off and away to my next big adventure.

I wanted to share a few thoughts with you because in no time, when/if your children get married or have kids, you will move to the role of grandmother and mother-in-law. This is a big shift and will be a big adjustment. Your children won’t need you any longer the way they did when they were growing up. It will be time for them to move on to their own independent adult lives. And if you’re like me, it will probably take some getting used to.

You may experience the stereotypical MIL/DIL(SIL) dynamic that can include tension, resentment, competition, disrespect, rejection, and even a feeling of becoming invisible no matter how hard you try to make it otherwise.

Or you may be in the fortunate position of having a daughter- or son-in-law who loves you like a mother. They may call you on the phone from time-to-time or even ask for your advice. I hope this will be the case for you, although according to my friends’ experiences and what I’ve read, this will be most often not the case.

I sincerely hope that whatever your experience is will be positive and loving and that you will be able to peacefully accept whatever comes your way.

❤️
Jane

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Remembering

Anonymous

My best friend in high school called last week. We spoke about friends we lost. How some obituaries read like a curriculum vitae. I suppose this was how this person was valued during their life. I see this on Fb, too among the living. Photos of this person with a celebrity or another listing their credentials promoting themselves.

I remember attending a friend’s funeral years ago. Another highly accomplished person, but no one spoke to that. Instead, they mentioned the person’s kindness and compassion to others. Overcoming insurmountable obstacles in their life. Their love of Appalachian culture, riding horses, design, watercolors, friendship, hiking, great films. Kindness. A good friend. And, then quiet ensued. These final words said it all.

Thank you, thank you, thank you.

There wasn’t a dry eye in the audience.

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Late to the environmental party but making up for lost time…

Barbara Greenleaf
 
When we were growing up, there was an ethos of hard work: anything you produced of value would have to be serious and difficult to do. Throughout my life, I bought into that idea, big time. This was evident in my writing, which was long on research and short on personality. Then, in middle age, I discovered my funny bone with my book, This Old Body: And 99 Other Reasons to Laugh at Life, and I haven’t looked back since.

Recently, in Adventures in ECO Land: My Humorous Take on Going Green, I’ve applied a light touch to an uber-heavy topic, the environment. I’m not cavalier about global warming, but believe that people are more open to a message, especially an unwelcome one, when you’ve first brought a smile to their lips.

In an effort to do my part, I’ve started the grassroots organization ECO Team, which encourages individuals to make the small changes that help slow climate change and heal the planet. Collectively, these small changes add up to a lot. Also, I have found that once people put their foot on the sustainability ladder, they tend to keep climbing. ECO Team holds monthly meetings with outside speakers, takes field trips, and bestows our annual Ed Begley, Jr. Award to honor environmental pioneers.
 
I wrap my environmental messages in light-hearted vignettes like this one:
 
Clothes, Clothes Everywhere and Not a Thing to Wear
 
According to a survey of 1,000 women by the organizing company ClosetMaid, the average American woman has 103 items of clothing in her closet, but she wears only 10 % of the them. Apparently, she considers 21% unwearable, 33% too tight, and 24% too loose. (I don’t know what’s wrong with the remaining 12%, but for some reason she is neither wearing them nor giving them away.) Why don’t we purge? Studies show we justify holding onto clothes because a) they cost a lot, b) we have emotional ties to them, or, most commonly, c) we can’t face the decision necessary for winnowing.
 
And women may not be the worst offenders. Men tend to put the same laundered shirts and tees on the top of their clean pile week in and week out, yet they cling to the bottom of the pile as if those unworn coverings were religious relics. (“Relics” yes, “religious” no.) But far and away the biggest culprits in today’s consumer society are teenagers. In the 1950s Americans generally owned one pair of sneakers. Today’s teens own eight pairs on average and 30% of young adults buy a new pair every month. No wonder YouTube mavens are obsessed with utilizing every square inch of closet space in order to house all our clothing, shoes, and accessories.

Owning great amounts of wearables would merely be cause for a chuckle or a rueful tsk-tsk if it weren’t for the massive environmental impact of producing and dyeing all the necessary raw materials, fabricating them, distributing them, and then disposing of them. In fact, the fashion industry accounts for 10 percent of the world’s gas emissions. The toll on its low-paid workers is equally horrendous as manufacturers chase the cheapest needle to the ends of the earth, especially to the southern hemisphere.
 
I don’t think of myself as particularly acquisitive, yet when I recently took a clear-eyed look at my closet, I was appalled to see how much stuff was in there. These items must date back to the Before time because, during Covid, what did I wear beside a pair of ratty old nighttime pajamas and a pair of dressier daytime pajamas?

I’ve resolved to call a halt to my consumerism and reduce what ends up in the landfill —within reason. I’m finding there are a plethora of options for renting clothes: high end (Rent the Runway), budget (Nuuly), or vintage (20Age Archive). Here in Santa Barbara, there are also REI’s returned items, Goodwill’s donated items, and Renaissance’s consigned items. Finally, I am closing the clothing loop by giving away the usable things and driving the hopeless cases to the county recycling center, where they are turned into industrial rags.
 
I feel so virtuous with all this to-ing and fro-ing that I think I deserve to rent a halo. Maybe I’m a little behind the fashion curve as the halo was already passé during the Renaissance, but this testament to my attempts to live sustainably has a lot to commend it: a halo is lightweight, it adorns but doesn’t muss one’s hair, and it goes with everything. Best of all, when I’m done with it, I can pass along the halo to another sister-in sustainability. It’s a win-win for the wearers and, most importantly, a win-win for the environment.

Adventures in ECO Land: My Humorous Take on Going Green is available on Amazon in print and Kindle.

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An aha! moment for a cranky old lady

Jane almost 74

I had an “aha moment” the other day. I met up with a couple who are friends of mine, and I noticed how one of them barked orders at the other and the subsequent hurt look on her partner’s face. I immediately began to criticize her behavior in my mind.

Later in the day I was thinking about this, and I began to realize that I criticize just about everybody all the time. And I’ve been doing this for many years.

How toxic is this? No wonder I often feel down. What is my problem? I analyze everyone and so often get upset because people don’t behave the way I think they should.

I have become a cranky old lady right before my very own eyes!

I’ve been living alone for the past three years now, and this has been getting to me. So, I decided to move into a 62+ independent living apartment complex that is in the same neighborhood as my son and grandkids. I’m thinking that this will result in a better social life. I won’t be spending so many hours alone. I do have a lot of friends, but still, I spend most of the time by myself.

I feel like I’m turning a corner and am able to step back and observe and accept situations whereas before, I would have been critical. It’s a much lighter feeling not sinking into that negative quagmire. I’m hoping I will continue to open my heart in this positive way and that when I move, I can start fresh with a new group of potential friends.

I have a feeling of hope now and actually am realizing that it is possible to continue to grow, even at almost age 74.

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Being relevant on purpose

Susan, Age 74

More and more I hear MEN say they don’t feel relevant. On a recent inquiry, I asked why.

“People don’t seek me out anymore. Ask my thoughts. The young mingle with the young. The forty-somethings think they are experts.”

Trying not to chuckle, I had to agree.

“You know, we did the same thing” I said.

A gerontologist by training, I have always enjoyed older people. Their wisdom, stories and thoughts and insights. I’ve joined a couple of groups recently. In one group, I am getting to know another writer. She told me she won’t share her age, but that she is much older than my mid seventy years. Much older. She doesn’t want people to judge her by her age, make assumptions.

After much thought, I responded that we continually make choices about the kinds of friends with which we associate, the ones with which we share our stories. An accomplished writer, this woman’s lips remain tight. She went on to say she wants younger friends. She didn’t seem to understand the contradiction. I suppose we all have our own.

I thought about whether I felt relevant. She didn’t understand the notion of relevance when I broached that. At least I didn’t hear about it. Feeling relevant has more to do with having a purpose. And, I think, that might be what some men are saying. Purposes can and do change over time.

Making new friends at this age is hard. Or maybe it isn’t. Maybe we try too hard to find a commonality, a way to communicate deeply. Find others willing to risk their vulnerability. To share one’s humanity. Experiences.

Having spent years among nature, I continue to learn that relevance is relative. In a society which encourages, demands that we seek satisfaction outside ourselves with incessant shopping, following cultural mores, many of which reinforce negative ways of being in the world, all we really have is our relationship to ourselves. Why? Because we are always running away from ourselves.

I continue working on being relevant. It is how we ease the way for others, contribute to society and being equally vulnerable, equally strong. Not just to others, but to ourselves.

My 75th birthday is this fall. For years, I thought I would travel with family out of the country as we did before my grandchildren were born. It just doesn’t feel relevant to my lifestyle now. Maybe I will throw a party and savor the moment. Either way, I have to work at feeling relevant. On purpose.

Again, thank you from my heart for this blog.

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Doing what I can

Anonymous, Age 69

Hi-

I’m a 69 year-old southern Californian. I retired at 61 and I’m enjoying it. I did return to my old job back in 2018 to work part-time (less than 10 hours a week), which is terrific. I just do the parts of the job that I loved, so no meetings, etc. It keeps my brain sharp.

At 59, in preparation for the aging body and the loss of balance, etc, I started a regular yoga practice at a local studio. I ended up loving it and enjoyed the attention from my teachers, who pushed me to go through yoga teacher training. I put it off until I was 65, and now I have a teaching certificate. I started to sub at a local Y just before Covid hit, and haven’t been back to sub, though I could probably audition at another Y if I wanted to be held to a schedule. I have mixed feelings about that.

I also go to a gym, where, to my amazement, I still turn the heads of men in their 40s. I’m guessing it’s the same dynamic that drew my yoga teachers to me. Ha! If they knew how old I was, they’d be surprised. I thank my parents for the strong, dense muscles I inherited that keep me strong as long as I take care of them.

I’ve led yoga sessions with former colleagues for fun, and for my book club. I’ve gone on yoga retreats as far as Peru and Mallorca and as close as Santa Barbara, CA and Cabo San Lucas.

I’m mulling around the idea of teaching chair yoga to my contemporaries at a local Y, as I notice they’ll take regular yoga classes there and struggle with getting down and up from the floor. I don’t want them to hurt themselves and then give it up. I just have to decide I want to commit to a schedule.

I love seeing photos of women my age and older lifting weights, practicing power yoga, flaunting their leggings and tops, and leading others towards fitness.

The other activity that occupies me has been GOTV efforts and supporting a few local campaigns. I am so afraid of what this country will be like for my daughter and any children she may have. As a black woman, I am fearful that hysterical, racialized, hateful white people will cheat to maintain power and destroy our democracy and push to deny climate change. So I do what I can on that front.

Cheers!

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