I want much more…

Pat,  Age 70

I turned 70 this week…15 years ago, my husband moved out of our bedroom and never returned…but we live together, and at this point, are friends. But we went through years of fights and hatred. He says he doesn’t remember any of it. I am here because it is easier. And he can pay the bills.
But, I have not been touched or held in 15 years,,,
I want much more than I have…but at 70, who would even begin to want me?

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4 Responses to I want much more…

  1. Dear Pat,
    You must first want and love yourself. You are worthy of being held, touched and loved. There are individuals who would be glad to meet and love you. Changing how you feel and think of yourself will positively affect your behavior and draw these people to you. List all of the wonderful qualities and talents you like about yourself. How do your family members and friends feel and think about you? Your husband’s rejection has absolutely nothing to do with you. Are you home isolating yourself? If so, do not allow his behavior to stop you from enjoying and embracing life. The world is waiting for you to join it. It is difficult to feel unworthy in the midst of a group of positive, confident, productive and joyous people. Find your tribe of supporters, if you have not already.

    We live in a youth obsessed and ageism society. A society which marginalizes women. A society which supports and enforces the mythology of women and aging. A society which attempts to control our spending, beliefs and movement as women. We experience this daily via all forms of media, marketing and projected images. All having no foundation for who and what we are. We must change our personal thinking, behaviors and work collectively to replace this paradigm with a new one. We’re powerful as a group and hold economic power. We spend more on goods and services than any other age group. It’s time those marginalizing us are put on notice. We will not purchase the goods and services of those who disrespect and marginalize us. We have the power to effect change, it starts with each of us.

    In Soldarity, all the best,
    Lorraine, Founder
    Mental Health/Aging Resources & Advocacy

  2. Diana says:

    Difficult as it is, you may want to accept that you and your husband have reached the only workable compromise possible. Then perhaps decide whether you’re looking for a friend, a lover, or both.

    I’d start with enriching my own life and see where it goes from there. What do you enjoy? Indulge yourself in doing the things that you can afford – whether it’s scented bath salts, concert tickets, or a little gadget to provide the satisfaction that he’s not providing.

    You may want to get out and join new activities, meet new people. Please remember that we’re all responsible for our own happiness. It’s not wrong to take steps to find it.

    Come back and talk to us. You’re not alone. We’re all finding our way at 70+.

  3. Linda says:

    At 73 I totally relate to this post. Husband and I share the house, bills and chores. Not much else. Sleeping apart a few years now, took me a long while to bring that about, I just needed some space and sleep. He is impossible to sleep with in the same bed. And nearly impossible in the physical intimacy dept. I desire at times someone to hold, and romance like the old days, Like listening to Leonard Cohen music with an imaginary lover..where would I go from here?

    Too much work and effort to sell out, pick up, move on, and I really don’t care to be bothered with another relationship….so, I dive into my work, Yoga teaching, my dog and my friends…all in all I guess best classified as a marriage of convenience.
    Linda

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